Choosing your own path seems like an abstract concept. But you have more power over who you are and what you project into your current life and future lives than you think. We are living in a time where life has been handed to you.  You’ve been told how to think, what to expect, how it should look, when to do what. However, when the life you think you should have does not line up with what has been given to you as your template for life, you start to live in a constant state of turmoil. Questions of discontent began to form.  Am I good enough? Do I have enough education? Do I have enough money? Do I have the right car, house, mate, kids, family. Everything you think you know is up for review.  You start to wonder into the sea of what is.

You look around and your friends and family appear to have a more ideal life than yours. You start to think why I can’t I have that. I deserve that template of what it means to be a happy person.  So you narrow your search down to one area of your life to focus on. You start to think if only I had a better job, I would be able to get a better house and have a better life. So you spend your days working hard, going back to school, updating your resume, changing your outward appearance and everything else on the surface of your life. Fast forward and now you have obtained what looks like the template and you might even be happy and proud of yourself for your achievement, which you should be. That is until the emptiness of what is pops up again because you realize an updated version of the template has emerged. Then you start the same cycle of changing your exterior to line up with your worldly view of what is. After going around this circle a couple times some people will jump off the merry-go –round to figure out where is the disconnect.  These people have an opportunity to see and understand a new world.

A world into which you may truly start to remember who you are or what you was sent here for. Discovering why you was sent here is an internal journey into the self. It is something that I am experiencing it right now. This experience is very real.  What I’ve found is that my perception of what was real is really not. It’s not truth, it’s more of an illusion. To get pass the illusion you have to be prepared to evolve. To examine every truth that you thought was truth to get to the real truth of higher self. This can start off as a painful and scary adventure. But the discovery of true self and lining up with who you are is well worth the journey.  A part of why we were sent here is for what seems like suffering but suffering is only a matter of interpretation. What you are really experiencing is a cleansing, a purification of self. You have to be stripped of all you think you know to find out what truly is. A part of you will fight this process from beginning to end. There have been moments when I’ve felt a sense of two steps forward three steps back. I’ve felt moments of being completely lost in this new word and wanting to lean back into what I was. The who I am to become seems abstract so distant at moments. But when I take the time to sit back and regroup and really change my perspective I realize it’s really not as bad as I thought. And in fact I have become a slightly better version of myself. More caring, more loving, more understanding… and I’ve developed a need to share what I’m learning in this process with others in hopes that they can learn from my experience. This sharing may produce a short cut for someone else or even a feeling of true connection with others.