I will be honest I don’t know whose life this is.  At times I feel scattered and all over the place but in a good way.  What I liked about my previous vocation was the structure and routine.  I knew one week out of every month I would be extremely busy.  I probably would have some level of stress, might lose a little sleep and I was definitely going to be eating something fried, cheesy or laced in chocolate.  Once it was over I’d go back to my zen life for another three weeks.

This new life so far involves very little stress in the traditional sense. My stress these days is related to what shoes or shirt to wear to which event.  I have a love-hate relationship with camera phones.  You damn near have to throw your clothes away after someone gets a snapshot of you.  You try explaining why you have the same shirt on in three different photos from three different venues.  This is extent of my current stress and even that is minimum.  However, my life seems all over the place.  My sleep pattern is all over the place.  The schedule I posted a week ago didn’t apply at all this week.  Things definitely got better after Tuesday.  I attended the following four out of the seven scheduled events this week.

• Employee to Entrepreneur
• Freedom from Fibroids
• SBA: Contracting With The Government
• Melanin MeetUp and Black Bloggers United

Each event left it’s own imprint on my thoughts.  In the midst of these events I lost track of time in a few places.  I had a thirty minute photoshoot that lasted three hours.  I decided based on the photographer’s energy to just go with the flow.  She was intrigued by my story and I had four hours to kill. She started her business three years ago yet somehow Groupon and my need to save a few bucks brought us together.  Her energy felt familiar, like talking to an old friend.  While prepping her space she told me to turn on any music I liked.  I chose Future’s Pandora Station.  I hesitated at first but he had gotten me through the week.  Whenever I needed to focus and tune out the world, I could zone out to the sound of his voice for three hour blocks of time to get work done.  Three hours flew by quickly and the photos turned out amazing.  I also walked away with a new friend.

The next day I spent three hours in an empty bar.  I found peace halfway through my frozen margarita.  I silently wondered what kind of life the other ten people in the bar live.  Time escaped me for awhile but it was a much needed break from the five hours I’d just spent in a stuffy room full of small business owners.  I pondered awhile on whose idea it was to put 50-60 people in a room for five hours with no snacks and no water. Either way I felt gratitude toward the bartender and tequila for helping me find my happy place.  This was my version of Namaste N’ Sip.

I ended the week with my monthly Namaste N’ Shop class.  The class went well.  I had four first timers.  I felt honored that they chose to spend time under my guidance.  I had to run home afterwards to change clothes for a Melanin Meetup and Black Bloggers United event.  I was an hour late.  When I arrive I initially was not feeling the vibe.  The hostesses were very inviting and their presence helped.  I wasn’t sure about everyone else’s energy so I stayed on the fringes of the group.  I did perk up once the three guest speakers began.  They were transparent seemed and down to earth.  They shared their experiences and answered questions. On the way to the car I reflected on their collective journey’s.  I felt a connection and it instantly made this week well worth it.

This week was different from last week.  I’d like to believe all roads are leading somewhere great.  It seems a little sketchy but I am a three dimensional character.  If you’ve read my previous post you know my interest vary and change accordingly.  I genuinely loving learning and experiencing new things.  The entrepreneurs path shall be no different.  After every event I get a new idea and potential opportunities rise to the surface.  Each time I pondered on how to incorporate what I just learned into my current journey, how can to share it or where to store it for a later date.  I’m not sure that I believe in coincidences.  I do not think we show up in places by mistake.  There is a consciousnesses we are aware and an unconsciousness that moves us according to what’s of our highest good.  Either way I don’t question it.  A day in the life is never dull… I am still working on my new routine.

Peace and Blessings

My new life is not all business.  My goal is to work 20-25 hours a week so that I can reconnect with family and friends.  I plan to have a better quality of life and that includes family and friends.  I am better able to create sabbaticals that include loved ones.  In the past, I have seen these times as sacred times and have shut out others for my solo time and space.  As I redirect my life and move more in alignment with my purpose, my sacred times must include the living beings I hold sacred as well.

I spent a few days on the beach this week.  The beach I choose was in close proximity to an aunt that I hadn’t seen in over five years.  In honesty I hadn’t spent much time with her because I’ve been caught up in my own life as many of us are.  We talked for four hours straight.  It was like catching up on a lifetime of missed phone calls and missed opportunities.  I realized where some of my sassiness comes from.  I thought it came from my mom but who knew I inherited some of it from my dad’s youngest sister.  Our connections with are siblings had many similarities.  I felt a sense of sadness as I drove off into the sunset.  I am not sure if it was hers or mine.   What I do know is it won’t take me another five years to see her.  I’ll make sure I visit more often.

Yesterday I ended my work day early for a two-hour drive to Montgomery Alabama.  I am the closest family for my cousin who attends Alabama State University.  She texted me last week to give me an excuse if I wanted to change my mind.  She was attempting to lower her expectations and not make me feel obligated.  She tried to tell me why it would be too much for me to come on April 20th to support her boyfriend’s fraternity probate and again on May 3rd for her dance performance.  What she doesn’t understand is that I’ve already chosen family and friends over long hours and a life filled with regret.  I have my priorities in order and I wouldn’t miss the invitation at this point in my life unless it was necessary.  I know first hand what it feels like to be hundreds of miles from the nearest family.  I also know that my presence lights her spirit and allows her to feel less alone and more connected.  I wouldn’t miss her invitations for the world.  My new life gave me nine hours to spare.  Time well spent in God’s eyes.

Finally after at least six years I am Dallas bound.  I am going to see my sister-friends and their babies.  Three children without the experience of their long-lost aunt, to caught up in her own world to visit.  My new life means new beginnings.  The first step to realignment and priority shifts.  In 2017, I am taking time to reinvest in myself and the people who love and support me.  If I can fly to China surely I can find a way to see my extended family that live in the same country.  I choose family.  I choose to shift my priorities.

New life new beginnings.

Peace and Blessings

When you allow the spirit to lead some things become non-negotiable.  I am one day away from my last day.  The company I work for was bought by another company about 10 months ago.  My office in Atlanta only consist of our former Accounting, Finance and IT groups.  Our new corporate office is in San Diego.

I knew when I saw the lady from HR something was awry.  We were called into a meeting to find out the Accounting function I have been leading for three years will be moved to San Diego by September.  As the news spread, I allowed it to sink in.  I was reminded by Coach Kelli that this was a lesson in trusting the process.  This is why I didn’t need to know what was being offered as stay money a few weeks ago.  My spirit said it was time and I was obedient.

I’ve known for at least a year it was time to move forward.  I struggled with my decision because I genuinely like my boss and felt guilty about leaving her to follow my spiritual nudges. The longer I stayed the angrier I got.  I was becoming irritated by everything and everybody.  I wanted to be left alone.  I had good days but I also had bad days.  I had to wrap my mind around my reality.  This job was no longer a fit and I was only buying time by sacrificing my peace.  When the Creator tells you to move and you don’t move, you become uncomfortable.  Things start going not so right.  I made excuse after excuse on why it wasn’t time. The whole while secretly resenting the person I was staying for.  The character of my staff was being revealed to me. The character of the new company was being revealed to me.  I was stressed and burned out.  Yet I stayed because I wasn’t ready to let go.  One thing we all will learn, you can either move willingly or be moved unwillingly.  I’m glad I chose to move.

It took the last 90 days of 2016 for me to wrap my mind around what I was being asked to do.  Then I woke up January 14th and wrote out my 90 day plan.  I knew by the end of March, I needed to be out of the building.  I did not know why.  I didn’t ask.  When the Creator asks you to trust, you are not always given the why.  I knew this by heart because I had been at this crossroad before.  I had been asked to let go before and everytime I initially struggled.  I would eventually accept and let go.  That did not make this time any easier.  Each time I remind myself that when I finally let go something greater happened. Something that made letting go well worth it.   That morning in January I knew it was time.

Once I go into planning mode, my mind is made up.  It is my way of confirming to the universe that I hear them and I am ready for my instructions.  The planning is for my mind not for my spirit.  My spirit is guiding, I had to get my mind in alignment. My first step was to write my resignation letter.  I wrote it that day.  I saved it on my computer.  I dated it March 31st and printed it.  I do not know why I choose that day.  On February 14th, exactly thirty days later, I had a conversation with my boss that I took as confirmation for my decision.  I expressed that day that I was creating my exit and would be out of the building in 60 days.  She thought it was mindless chatter, even smirked and later asked me what was my date.  I said with no hesitation April 14th.  The way I said it made her sit up in alarm. I did not smile or smirk.  Family and friends couldn’t believe my honestly but I was living and breathing in a different space.  Again I did not know why I choose that day.

You may see this as coincidence but I see this as synchronicities.  I see these as confirmations from the universe.  Today April 13th, my department found out we were losing our jobs.  While different stages of shock set in with everyone else, I was at peace. I was thankful.  I walked with my head up.  My plan was already made.  There was no need for me to react.  No need to feel anger because I was taken care of.  The Creator had already spoken over me.  I was asked again what was my price and my response was non-negotiable.

I trust I made the right decision.  I trust I am perfectly positioned.  Today I know I am a free woman.  I now know why.  I am ready to take my destiny in my own hands.  No turning back only forward movement.  I say to all trust the process.

Peace and Blessings

I am an inspiration to others.  While I am not the first person to move from part time to full time business owner, I have had so many people find inspiration in my choice.  I get asked often how is your transition possible?  Can you afford to quit your job?  Do you have a lot of money?  My response is when you are afraid to lose nothing then you are ready to gain everything.  When I was afraid that I wouldn’t be able to take care of myself, it wasn’t time.  When I was afraid that I would be starting from bottom, it wasn’t tme.  When I was afraid just to be afraid, it still was not time.  The moment I decided I was not afraid of any of those things then I immediately shifted to it’s time.

Fear can hold us in place even when it’s not true.  We can spend so much time overanalyzing and waiting for the perfect time that we miss the perfect time.  I experienced spiritual nudgings and each one was preparing me for this moment.  I had to practice not being afraid.  I had to practice trusting the universe.  This had to happen so that I could share with other people.  Sometimes people want your life but don’t want your experiences.  Please know the Creator want all to live in alignment with their highest good.  When we make the choice to follow it everything else falls into place.

3 Days and Counting

Peace and Blessing

I want to live in between the lines for a bit.  I think what I look forward to most is a resting place.  Not the typical one and a half days we get between Friday and Monday. Sundays don’t count as a full day because you spend the second half of it preparing for Monday.  I truly want to rest and regroup.  No phones, no internet, no tv, no car…just in between the lines with nowhere to go but on purpose.  I want to be able to purposely choose to sit in between the lines.  No schedule, no bills, no deadlines, no check ins even if just for a while.  I want to rest for a bit.  I know how yesterday looks, tomorrow is unknown.  I want to live in the place between yesterday and tomorrow.  I want to live in between the lines.

4 Days and Counting

Peace and Blessings

I am magical.  I create what I want to appear.

Peace and Blessings