Week 2 is getting off to a rough start. I have plenty to do, calls to return, appointments to schedule and events to attend. My ‘to do’ list continues to expand. I have 2 missed calls, 6 missed text and 4 missed glides (an app my friends and I use for group chats). Monday was a wash because I traveled back from Dallas that morning. By the time I got settled at home it was after 12pm. I planned to attend an event last night but was too drained to get it together.
Today started off promising even though I didn’t wake up until 6am. Everything was scattered around my apartment so I decided to straighten up a bit. It’s hard to focus in a disheveled space. Plus I prefer to clean first thing in the morning so I can come home to a tidy place. Cleaning was a part of my ritual to start my day in my former vocation. I washed dishes, swippered floors, organized clothes, set up my meditation and yoga space. Two hours later I had to mentally force myself to take a seat to regroup. I somehow hadn’t even gotten to my mat time and was still far from starting my ‘work day’. After about 10 minutes I pulled out my notebook to see what was needed for the day. I wrote one thing down then absent-mindedly stumbled down on the mat.
I turned on the music but felt annoyed and decided I’d listen to the birds instead. I jumped up to opened the windows. I sat back down for my yoga opener. Ten minutes later I was folding clothes. I don’t even remember when I drifted off the mat. I stopped folding and got back on the mat. Glazing at my watch I promised myself 30 minutes on the mat then I’d start my day. I picked up where I left off and immediately went into pigeon pose. I listened to my body and allowed it to guide me from pose to pose. After 45 minutes, I ended my yoga sequence in dancer’s pose. I cannot hold dancer’s pose for long but as I switched sides I knew it was necessary for me to leave the apartment. I became very aware of my lack of focus. Although I had candles burning and sage smudging in the background I mentally drifted in and out of focus.
Standing on the edges of my new life awareness is key. There are many reasons why people decide to start a business. I started my business to have freedom and flexibility in mind, body and spirit. Freedom and flexibility are not useful if you aren’t focused. I love ending my day at 2pm if needed or starting it at 5pm if I choose to. Today’s awareness allowed me to see freedom and flexibility still need some level of structure, parameters and balance. Lucky for me I’d already scoped out a few locations with some level of structure. I headed out the door in ripped jeans, flips flops and a “sleep is for suckas” t-shirt. Time to get to work.
Peace and Blessing