This week I’ve been moonlighting at my old job. Quite a few people were surprised to see me walk back in the doors on Tuesday. I left on good terms and have a pretty good rapport with my former director. We were in talks prior to my departure about the possibility of my return in a different capacity and of course on my own terms. I laid out my parameters, dates of availability and new compensation requirements. I left with no expectations. In my opinion I had nothing to lose either way. If she called it would be supplemental income. Since my livelihood was no longer dependent on that company. If she didn’t call I would lose no sleep and continue as planned. I made it clear that I wasn’t available full time since my focus would be on growing my business. My director’s response was lukewarm at best. I wasn’t sure if she was shocked by my preparedness, my request for new compensation or if she was just wearing her poker face.
I released my attachments to her response and left with my head high. Releasing my attachment meant that I wouldn’t put any thought into her reaction. Therefore freeing myself from any future self doubt. Our self doubt is rooted in our fears. When we spend time trying to translate another person’s response we unconscious create stories based on our fears. Releasing our attachment to an outcome means you understand there is a better plan working in your life for your highest good. When we don’t release our attachment, instead of bringing what the Creator intends for us to have we now create disharmony. We also send the message that we do not believe it is possible for the good to happen.
When you do not release your attachment to the outcome, we try to interpret another person’s response. Your interpretation is what causes the internal fight. For example, I could have walked away wondering if I was qualified to move from a Manager to a Consultant. If my rate was too high? If my decision was going to destroy a five year work relationship/partnership? If this was the best time? Should I have presented my proposal differently? All these would have been based on me trying to figure out what her response meant. I would be in turmoil until I heard back from her either way. I could have allowed the voice of self doubt or even the well meaning but destructive thoughts from others push me into discontent for weeks and maybe even months. However the moment I said I released it, I pushed fear and self doubt out of my psyche.
This is a practice of self love and blind faith. Self love taught me that I am enough. I am successful. I have a pivotal role in what happens next. A higher power wants me to be happy and at peace because there is a plan over my life that was designed just for me. There is a plan over everyone’s life that was perfected just for you. You came with a purpose. We just have remember we received an internal road map to finding our purpose. That’s why it’s important to follow and feed your spiritual prompting. Spiritual prompting are your roadmap. Yoga and meditation can help you access it quicker and more frequently. There are many other ways to access it including music, writing, creative pursuits and much more. We just have to figure out which format provides the shortcut to the hotline. From my experience when I release my attachment to an outcome, that is my way of saying it is no longer in my hands. I have done my part.
Two weeks went by with no response. I thought nothing about it and focused on my business. On the Friday of the third week I got her response. Could I be there the following Tuesday? I smiled internally because I knew a higher power was in agreement with my decisions and I had created a new life on my terms.
Peace and Blessings