I was having a conversation with a person I was getting to know. In the midst of sharing some random idea and the person cut me off mid-sentence to say “you always seem to be on some kind of journey as if you are still trying to figure yourself out”.
The truth is I’ve always had a genuine curiosity about life. I’ve been fascinated with self-help and self-improvement since a teenager. Since I spend most of my time with myself, its only natural that I am the subject of my own curiosity. I have a wild imagination and my dreams speak to me. If I read it or it peaks my interest I want to experience it. I get tired of a lot of things but what I’ve never been able to shake is this curiosity about myself and the world around me. Even at this age, I still feel like there is so much more out there to experience and learn from. My need for solitude and freedom steams from this daily inquisition. In solitude I’m able to cultivate the ideas and freedom allows me to roam the planet at my own leisure to find my own answers. As a result, I’ve had a wide range of experiences that some cannot identify with.
A fully engaged spiritual seeker is more like an arsonist, setting fire to people’s comfort and feeding the flames with courage and love. And it begins with setting fire to the comfort of your own “home”. ~ Gary Z McGee
Although we all have a desire to be understood and accepted, that need has never trumped my desire to see where these urgings within will lead. Seekers are just born that way, they cannot help it. My purpose is tied to this lifelong path of self-discovery. Some may ask what exactly are you seeking. The answer is knowledge and experience. An idea comes to mind, I research and read about it. From there either my curiosity is satisfied or I create the scenario to experience the idea. Once the idea is experienced, then I move on to the next concept. This way of life is a series of mini journeys yet all of the journeys are interconnected. Each choice leading me somewhere new. Without options, I might feel a sense of boredom that I hear others speak about. I have rarely experienced boredom. I’ve never had enough time to get bored between reading, writing, learning and experiencing there is little time left for it. Even in my downtime, I’m usually daydreaming about my next adventure.
Peace and Blessings